We all have those days when it just seems easier to do what everyone else is doing. To live according to someone else's ideal. Maybe it's the 40 hour a week job. Maybe it's getting married, having kids, going to school, buying that house...
Hard is following your inner voice and living by your own ideal. You will fail sometimes. We all do. Shoot you'll fail if you follow someone else's ideal too (maybe even more so).
Keep trying and hopefully we will all find OUR way.